I can’t be the only one who’s lingering to a place that was never mine, i can be the only one who’s mourning over a heart that never wanted me in the first place, and i cant be the only who’s holding the door wide open just in case you wanted to come back , come back to tell me that you miss me, come back to say hello or even to touch me, come back to kiss me; on my cheeks, neck or even lips, just kiss me and bring me back to life.
A soulless body, a soulless body yearning for your touch, what a plot twist you were; stealing all my love away, stealing my soul and ran away to give it to someone, someone else.
Remember me though, remember the pain you caused, how i begged you on my knees not to leave, how i begged you on my knees to break my heart again, and again and again.
You left, but everything you did still lingers, the temporary love, the good morning texts and goodnight prayers, the kisses during the fights and all the pain and chaos you left inside of me when you decided you’re better off without me.
Your good nights always looked like a goodbye but i always lied to myself and prayed all night long that you’d text me when the sun is up, i even sometimes stayed up waiting for you to text me, as if my sun rising depended on you, and it did, it still does.
Loving you, was so easy so damn easy, to the point i loved you with my all-i still do, and maybe you think that you leaving was the hardest part but it was never the hardest part, the hardest part is remembering you all day long, thoughts about you in my head that kill me and make me feel alive, the hardest part is suffering not to text you, the hardest part is trying my best not to bend and beg you one more time to take this soulless body and bring it back to life-how can you bring something to life if you were the one who killed it?
I can’t be the only one who’s lingering to everything we once had, and everything we could’ve been, i can’t be the only one who’s yearning to a fantasy my own mind made up, and i can’t be the only one holding the door wide open fighting all the storms and all wind that’s trying to shut it, but yet and after all the tears that i cried over you, i am the only one who’s feeling that way, i am the only one who’s missing you, i am the only puzzle with that missing puzzle piece that ran to try to fit in somewhere else.
Everything you did still linger, even the pain you caused built a castle and lived in my heart, and all of the love you once gave me ran away following you the moment you called it quit.
Bittersweet love 