Waiting, still.

Your kisses were like summer breeze, that summer breeze that would hit you after swimming for an entire hour, that summer breeze when you feel goosebumps

And your temporary love felt like a shelter after being homeless for years, a warm shelter where i finally for once in my life i felt in like im home, it felt like home made of two arms and brown eyes, a shelter where i knew I’d be in temporarily, yet i tried my hardest to stay in, to never leave. And imagine how hard it was getting kicked out after finally feeling like I’m home.

The words you said that night still haunt me like a ghost i can’t get rid off, like a memory that been unlocked after trying so hard to forget it and now im left between the bottles and pills trying to numb the pain and yet it never really do, with each glass i find myself remembering you vividly, seeing you in every corner of my place, and you calling my name, i even sometimes see you touching my body with so much love, so much love that was never there-at least not for me.

the way you left was like a tequila shot i had to drink it , eat the lime and even lick the salt to numb my pain-but it never really worked.

The way you left got me just as drunk, and hurt me even worse than tequila shots the next morning.

But im still waiting for you my dear, im still waiting for you like trees wait for spring so they could bloom again, like a cloud waits to be filled with water, and just the way the stars wait for the sun go down so they could shine with the moon again.

I’m still waiting for you the way kids wait for Christmas so they can get their presents.

I’m still waiting for you like a widow waiting for her husband to arise from the dead, and I’m still waiting for you to return like an addict waiting to stop without even trying.

I’m still waiting where you left me, waiting for you like an astronaut , waiting for the lookalike mars eyes, to come back and take me home-and if mars ever hit the earth, it will explode and fall to ashes, but yet I’m still waiting for you and taking the risk.