Honey dripping lies

You say im selfish

Selfish for giving up and selfish for letting go

You say I’m guilty

Guilty for breaking your heart and guilty for leading you on

You say i was never there

Never there when i made you cry, and was never there when she held your hand when i let go of it

You say im selfish

Selfish for choosing myself, selfish that i didn’t fight for you

You say a lot of things, but you never say the truth

You never say how i loved you, and how i put your happiness before mine

You said a lot of things, but you never said how you broke my heart and how i collected the pieces so scared that i might stop loving you

You never say how i still call you when i feel lonely at night

How i write poetry about you

And how you took my serenity away

You never say how i begged you to choose me

But instead you went after her

You say im guilty, for cutting you off and for running away

But you never told them how you hold captive of me, how im never truly free of you

You never say how i opened the door that you shut behind when i told you to leave

You say its all my fault,

All my fault for saying yes, and for always forgiving you

But you never say how i begged you to stop hurting me, you never say how i killed pieces of myself to keep you alive

You said and say a lot of things

But you never will tell them

You will never tell them how we used to stay up all night

How i used to fall asleep between your arms

You say a lot of things, but you’ll never tell them the truth

How red was my favourite colour and blue was yours

How after i told you, you made me live in endless blue thoughts

And you went on chasing the red and made me bleed with actions i never deserved.