tell me the truth
how have your heart been since i last visited it?
how did you survive the great storm alone without me?
tell me the truth
am istill wandering around your mind
marking every corner as mine
or did you drown me with the blue thoughts you once had?
do you still get wet when you think about me
or do i just make you cry?
tell me the truth
do i still remind you of love
oram i just your greatest heartbreak?
because if you ask me
i would tell you how the nights are a bit longer now that you are not here holding me
i would tell you how i lost my mind from thoughts of you
and how im drowning in endless red
punishing myself for leaving you
i would tell you how you took over my heart
and now i cant feel it beating for me
its beating for hopes that one day
you will come home
to save me
perhaps i dont want saving
i just want to feel the hold of you
how i walk with heavy heart
wandering around the streets we used to go
in hopes i would find you standing under some tree
or sitting on a bench waiting for me
to take you home
how my eyes have been raining ever since we said our goodbye
how i wanted you to be the love of my life
not just a scar on my heart
if you ask how have i been
i would tell you how my heart is breaking
to pieces
to shreds
every single night
how i just want to sit the house on fire
because your ghost is in every corner
and your laughter is hauntingmy every dream
i would tell you how i would never drink vodka
because it reminds me of you
how i will never wear red again
or sleep with my red led on
i would tell you
how poetry doesnt feel the same
how every line hurts too much
and the papers keep cutting my fingertips
how i no longer believe in love
because we buried ours alive
with no one to do it justice
i would tell you
how much it hurt that i left you
and how much more its going to hurt
that i will never be with you
but tell me
how have you been since i last broke your heart?
are you still having nightmares
or do you sleep well at night?
tell me
do you still love me
or am i just another memory
that you hurt when it crosses your mind
if you ever were to ask how have i been
i would tell you that im still madly in love with you like the first time
and that i cry a little whenever you cross my mind.
Bittersweet love 