oblivious

in another life, my eyes will find yours, even if you’re a thousand suns away,

even if your soul won’t recognise me, or even if you are gonna haunt me down with just words, i would still find you

and i would pour out my soul for you , i would write you poetry, and sing you lullabies to sleep

i would love you, harder than i do right now,

i would love you recklessly, shamelessly, and i would give my all to you in the most painful ways, i would try to be different again, i would try to make you love me,

love me the way you did that one day when i ran to you with a strawberry, i would love you again

and with a crippling gut wrenching feeling thats eating me out,

i would stay even if you fuck me up in every life we would meet

i would stay even when you push me and burn my soul down,

i would stay even when im twisting in pain even when your words are bullets in my heart, i’d beg you to bring me back to life; even if it means i have to tell you how to keep me

even when you say im not worth the try, i’ll wait for you to change your mind

and if i couldn’t find you, i’ll picture you in every star, til its burnt out into oblivion

in every song lyrics, id manage to find your name between the verse and the chorus

i’d let my heart cry til it cant beat no more

and i’d let my pieces fall all over the floor and like a meteor i’ll let it destroy my every living cell, til im only known as the land where once love was found

i’ll be known for dying for love

and under the name of love, i slowly killed pieces of my soul til they just fade into the greys

i’ll let you torture me til i can recognise myself anymore,

i’d rather be in pain, than witness a sunrise without calling out your name ,

in another life, in another life, i have to convince myself that i’ll meet you in another life where you’re tongue only knows my name,

and my bones don’t have to twist each time you see me passing by, to check up if you are okay

and endless cycle of disappointment, under the name of meeting you again,

i’ll keep waiting for your return, a return for something that never left, but its heart is further than the moon

in another life, where you’ll break my heart again

i’ll still accept your silent apology, and carry the words in my heart

so i never stop feeling the pain,

you are the closest thing to pain, yet i call you love as if its your second name

and i can only blame the wreckage that i once called home.